The New System to my New Life-Style

I haven’t posted any updates on what I’ve been doing… It’s all good; everything in my life is kind of falling into place. Work is good, but I downgraded to part time because I never had time before to do anything OTHER than work. So today I left work at 2P.M, normally I would leave at 5:30 or 6 and I’d get home at around 7 or 8 depending on the traffic jam :S so the new system is amazing, I am home by 2:30 or MAX 3 PM…
Starting from tomorrow I’ll be going for a daily walk… up till now, I’ve been moving around and on my feet for the most of the days, ESPECIALLY today, so exercise wasn’t a problem… but I’d like to walk every day, the weather is amazing this time of the year, it’ll be like this till it’s time for me to leave, which is perfect cuz by the time am in Australia, the weather in Australia will become better (I believe so) I think the summer will be ending if am not mistaken; that’s around mid Feb or so!

Hmm, what else…!??
Well, I am currently waiting for my student Visa to be ready, once that’s completed, I can start looking for a place to live in and make flight bookings… I’ve already started shopping for stuff I’d need and so on!

As for my weight… like I mentioned before, I don’t want to obsess about weight loss,, so I haven’t done any weigh-ins lately, and I am currently not planning to.. Scales make me depressed and I’ve been having a great time lately so I don’t want to mess with that… BUT, EVERY ONE I meet has been telling me that it seems I’ve lost weight; WHICH is the MAIN reason I started this journey... So, I am Proud to say that I am still on this journey to my healthy life-style (which I am easily embracing btw).. And the fact that people are noticing that I am losing weight, and that my jeans are now a bit too loose on my hips is just so satisfying and that makes it a lot easier to not want to hop on the scales!! I actually had to stop and buy me some belts so my jeans won’t fall off of me!
I am hoping that by the time I DO decide to weigh myself, I’ll be 118 or if am THAT LUCKY 115!! Which I think might happen by the end of this month, or if my daily walks go really well, then mid December :D

Wish me luck, and I hope everyone is doing as great as me :D

I realized that ....

I have cut myself from everyone and everything this last week! And it felt damn great to shut down from all the “weight loss” crap in my head, and from my friends who now know that I am on a weight loss journey and sometimes feel so awkward when they are eating a chocolate cake, which is weird because I don’t mind that, I even had some of the cake!

So, here’s what happened! This week was supposed to be my medical examination that I needed to complete for my student visa requirements, which is such a hassle. So I went to see the doctor on Sunday night and he scolded me about me weight – as if I didn’t already scold myself – and I felt so bad because I didn’t intend to get to this weight; things happen and I decided to move on and I am now moving on!

So the doctor really got me down, and he told me that he was concerned and that I needed to see a specialist so that he makes sure that I am not medically ill and that I am otherwise healthy and able to live on my own and that my weight won’t be an obstacle when it comes to Uni. And also, since I am anemic, that made him worry even more. He put me on the scale and I weighed at 122.3 KG and he said that I should be eating 1000 calories per day, not 1200, not 1500…

He asked me to do a blood test the day after, and after the results come out, I should see the specialist. I did exactly that and for two days, I didn’t do ANYTHING, I didn’t obsess about weight stuff, about exercising or any of that. Which didn’t really feel that great, but I was so paralyzed by what the blood test results might show (I was freaked that my blood hemoglobin would be too low and that I might need a blood transfusion). So, I ate around 3 times a day, stopped when I felt that I wasn’t hungry any more, and did nothing but stay in bed and read books!

When I went to the specialist he told me that my hemoglobin was 10.3, which is still lower than the range of healthy (12 – 15) for women, but I felt great because it was higher than last time (8). He gave me iron tablets to bring that up.

Anyway, he put me on the scale, and guess what!?! I weighed 121.3 KG!!! I was thrilled; I actually lost weight in those 2 days! And today, I weighed in after 2 days and I weigh 120.7…!

I have been eating healthy for the past month or so, I have been moving around, working out whenever I am free, but not as much as I would like! If am craving brownies, I make my own, but make sure they are low fat with less calories… which is amazing because they taste great..

I realized that I can’t and won’t allow myself to be obsessed about my weight! I will still lose it, and my goal is still to be 50 Kgs by next year, but that doesn’t mean that this journey needs to take over my life… it gets me down when I weigh myself and find that I haven’t lost any weight or gained or whatever..

So what I will do now is everything I know HOW to do; keep eating healthy, eat what I want, eat less, and move around whenever I can. And that makes me happy!

Bad news + really bad news

well, the bad news is that I haven't really lost any weight, in fact, I think i might've gained! I used the hospital's scales to weigh myself

and the really bad news is that my student visa (medical check) is being delaid because of my weight! :S

I am Morbidly Obese, my BMI is 49.. and I NEED TO LOSE ATLEAST 20 KGS in the coming 2 months :(


I am very depressed, and I have no idea what the doctor will tell me when I see him after tomorrow!

1 KG DOWN in one week!

YAAAAAAY

I am very happy... I lost one KG in a week..

and i've been eating healthy (i can still do better)
and i am working out.. i started with 30 minutes, then 45 minutes, and yesterday i did 60 minutes :D an HOUR!!! yay!!

hehehe.. i am not going to work out everyday, but atleast 4 times a week.. and i'll always make sure i get atleast 30 minutes per work out..

currently, i am trying to find something that would help me lose a LOT of weight in a short period of time, just enough to kinda show.. then i guess i'll just keep losing it :D

am also trying to find something that goes with my BODY!!

yay, wish me luck!

Online Trainer + New Goal by next Feb! :)

I am starting to feel really lousy about myself and my stupid goals that I never keep up!!


I AM SOOOOOOO SICK OF MY WEIGHT!!!!!!!!


I NEEEEEEEEEED TO LOOOOOSE IT ALLLLLLLLLL>>>


ok, so by chance the other day, I met this guy online who REALLY keeps pushing me towards my goal.. so, by the time it's time for me to leave to australia, I should be around 110 kgs or less.. am 124 at the moment.. so that's around 15 kgs in about 3 months...!!

I am happy with it.. but ofcourse, I get my depression momentS!!!!

I got in, and I don't know how to lose the weight!

So, I received my offer from Griffith University in Australia,, and I am very very happy. My friend just left to Australia about 2 hours ago, she has an English course to finish,, when she left, and I got in, I really felt a pit at the bottom of my stomach cuz this is REALLY REALLY happening,, and I still didn’t lose any weight!!

I have around 3 months now, and I just feel like I need to lose like 20 kilos :P

I don't know what to do to get there though. I am looking up for a membership at some gym, but who's to say that I'll go everyday, I am very lazy, and I work till around 5:30, sooo I'd have to go immediately after work!! that's too much I think!

totally random thought: I kinda miss having a boy friend

Still want to lose weight!

I haven’t posted anything for more than 2 weeks now! Well, I’ve had the best time those past few weeks, and I’ve been pretty happy with everything in my personal life, things were almost perfect.. and you know what, they still are, and I hope things stay this way for as long as humanly possible.

Now, about my weight loss program, well, there isn’t any! I’ve been doing what I want, eating what I want, but, my weight is not changing, so, I suppose that’s better than gaining!!

About a week ago, I went paintballing with my best friends, one of them is really gorgeous, and the other two are pretty, and we were joined by a group of marines, all of them were younger than us, about 18 yrs old till 21! And they kinda wanted to hang out with the pretty ones, and it showed.. so I felt kinda bad.. me with my extra weight and it was just bad and it still hurts..

So I suppose that made me hate myself a bit,, but I know that I still WANT to lose weight, and to be honest, I don’t know what am doing.. cuz I hate to exercise, and I don’t know what to eat!! :S