Working out

I have been working out for almost a month now, and it has been working out great for me.. For the most part, I've been feeling energized, good, alert and cool. I have lost a few kilos, but it's been going up and down, which is ok for now cuz I wanna be consistent first.

It's all good!

I am proud

I haven't been exercising or working out or eating healthy, but I have been happy for quite sometime. I believe that maybe this path I am on now is going to help me lose weight. not by magic obviously. I have been very active and I have been losing weight slowly and steadily. I haven't forgotten about this journey of mine. It's just taking me a bit longer than I expected and for sometime, I got sick of it. But I know how important this is and I know how much I want it.

I know enough to say that I can see my path clearly now, and I am happy with the way things will turn out. I've learnt to appreciate myself more and stop loathing the sight of me. I stopped selling short for guyz, instead of having them accept me, I now have a set of rules about accepting them. It's about what I want and what I desire rather than what they want or desire. I think this new revelation is called self respect. I now respect myself and my body and my soul because I love myself the way I am. I am a smart independent woman, I care deeply about my family and friends and am always there to help out a friend in need. People care about me and appreciate me just as I am.

I am proud. expect more in the coming months.

Back 2 Basics §±§

That's all I wanted to say!
I am living life the best way I know how.. am doing alright for myself!!

Failing is not an issue anymore

I haven't been doing anything drastic.. but I am losing weight slowly and i like it.. it shows on me and people are noticing and I am noticing..

I am eating right, at the right times and it's all automatic.. I suppose that's the goal.. My stomach is programed now. If i eat and am full, I stop. JUST like that.. and as for exercise, it is still not in my program, but it's ok.. it's not the right time for me..

I think i am just starting to figure it out!

Failing scares the hell out of me! "One Day at a time"

So, I've been working out for the past week or so.. am too scared to tell anyone about it because am afraid i'll jinx it.. I've been saying to myself, "One Day at a Time" and it seems to be working great for me..

I hold my breath sometimes just to make sure nothing changes.. that's silly i know.. but I've been down this road before and I know how it always ends..

But I really wanna do this,, more than anything in the world, i want people to look at me and wonder for a second if am really me, because i lost so much weight.. tHIS is going to happen.. I WILL it to happen, and it will happen..

This isn't about me being motivated.. this is about me having NO other choice...

I will do this...
One Day at a time!

I am tired

I realize I haven't been posting in a for a while..

So here's what happened.. Previously in MY LIFE:

- Am Studying in Australia
- I'll be here for another Year
- I am very unhappy with my life
- I don't know how to fix it
- It's very much connected to me being overweight, actually, Obese
- I try to hide the fact that am bothered and unhappy
- It's not working out for me
- I know it's up to me, but it's not easy
- I miss my family, my friends
- I can't wait to go back home this summer/winter in australia
- I feel soooo lonely, even though am here with one of my closest friends
- I don't write as often as I'd like to.. which bothers me very much
- I spoke with this guy I was very much in love with, and felt that my life hasn't changed to the better; it's been 4 years or so
- I am 21, almost 22
- I feel like crying all the time
- I do have a problem, no one is supposed to be this unhappy and NOT do anything about it
- I know that people are going to read this, and I honestly don't care
- This is the only place I can be completely 100% my self.. and I was never able to
- I am just talking now..
- I wish I can take charge of my life

I am tired

New Beginning

I've only been in australia for one month and people already noticed my weight loss...

Even though I haven't really lost any weight.. I am home for one week, and basically everyone is very imperessed with me.. I am impressed aswell..

Anyways.. I want to keep this blog alive.. So I will start posting as soon as I join the gym.. which should be very very soon..

If anyone reads this blog.. please wish me the best.. :)