Friday, October 26, 2007

Still want to lose weight!

I haven’t posted anything for more than 2 weeks now! Well, I’ve had the best time those past few weeks, and I’ve been pretty happy with everything in my personal life, things were almost perfect.. and you know what, they still are, and I hope things stay this way for as long as humanly possible.

Now, about my weight loss program, well, there isn’t any! I’ve been doing what I want, eating what I want, but, my weight is not changing, so, I suppose that’s better than gaining!!

About a week ago, I went paintballing with my best friends, one of them is really gorgeous, and the other two are pretty, and we were joined by a group of marines, all of them were younger than us, about 18 yrs old till 21! And they kinda wanted to hang out with the pretty ones, and it showed.. so I felt kinda bad.. me with my extra weight and it was just bad and it still hurts..

So I suppose that made me hate myself a bit,, but I know that I still WANT to lose weight, and to be honest, I don’t know what am doing.. cuz I hate to exercise, and I don’t know what to eat!! :S

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Confessions of a frustrated girl

Right now, I feel kind of frustrated..

Today I had potato chips.. I wasn't even hungry,, and while eating I knew I shouldn't be eating them.. WTF is wrong with me! I feel so freakin stupid...

and I had a chocolate bar,, it freakin has 266 calories.. wht the hell!!!

I KNOW that I am NOT supposed to be eating crap anymore...


UHG, I am just really angry...

I am not crazy, I won't kill myself, or starve myself, or make myself throw up what I ate.. but I am really frustrated with myself right now!!

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For Dinner I had some traditional food from my country that I just have no idea how to describe or how much calories it had.. but that doesn't matter.. cuz in a week, things will go back to normal, and I can really look at what am eating and figure stuff out for real...


Still NOT working out YET...

Saturday, October 6, 2007

I am talking, err, typing!

Hi


So, I changed my Goal to 50 kgs /110 lbs, someone told me I shouldn't and that I should keep on the 60kgs/132 lbs.. but I looked into it, and i'd still look fat at a 60, cuz am REALLY short..


So it's better this way.. I will get there,, and NOTHING will stop me..

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I am still sick, now I am coughing and my nose is running 24/7... I didn't go to work, YAY :P


emm, what else, yesterday I had a light food day, I had crackers and water all day till dinner, then I had some rice with beef steak, tasted pretty good, and I had some soup, and some samoosa.. ok, so maybe it wasn't light..I think dinner was really heavy, but it's fine cuz I had it early, and I stayed withing the range or my daily calorie intake :)


'till next time...................

Friday, October 5, 2007

Still Sick + Food Diary + Mini Changes in the blog + Mini Goal

Still Sick
I am sooo tired.. my throat is better today, but now the flu kicks in and I am starting to cough... help me god.. gosh I am soooo exhausted, and I haven't been drinking any water.. pretty hard to swallow anything.. except tea.. I've had about 7 tea with milk and sugar cups in the past 2 days!!!!!!!!!

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Food Diary
All i've been eating is saultine crackers with the tea..
last night i had some rice with meat balls for dinner..
I think my calorie intake yesterday was less than 1000!

today I only had crackers with tea for breaky..
I will have a good dinner, and am still not sure what mom made for lunch!!!
oh well.. will figure it out..

I am doing SOMETHING right cuz I lost some weight! :)


PS: still not working out!

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Mini Changes in the blog
I added some motivational kinda pictures to the blog, just to remember my goal..
Thank god my friends don't know about this blog :P they woulda thought I was a lesbian!!!! hehehehehe

And I also added my Spark people page under the links.. if anyone wants to check my nutrition facts and all what i've been eating, u can do that by going to my spark page, and it's there somewhere on the page..
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Mini Goal
I lost some stuff...

here's my mini goal tracker...



can't wait to get there!!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Fallen Sick + Mini Goal here I come

I've fallen sick today, my throat is killing, feels sooooooo horrible..
I am exhausted all the time..and the flu is probably coming tomorrow!

My food diary is crappy for the past few days.. I still don't know what's good for me and what's not.. but I am giving it time and trying stuff out..

My diet still consists of fat mostly, I need more carbs.. trying to have low fat milk whenever I remember.. had a fruit salad last night..

so am getting there..

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I lost some stuff...

here's my mini goal tracker...



can't wait to get there!!!